Thoughts.

How do you know if you are really in love, or just playing around?

Honestly, I have no idea. Being the fearless bitch that I am always, I broke up with her, and went along with her sister.  And now I am end up with a torrent of whines that I think I should make a script out of it and send it to some Korean movie producers and make a movie or a drama out of it. And, oh, Korean producers, if you really want to make a movie out of my story, I want G-Dragon from BIGBANG to be me, alright?

Jokes over, since I am a bit sure that one of them does not even bother to read this wonderfully crafted blog of mine, it would be just splendid for me to write what's on my mind here instead of writing it on Facebook and asking for people's sympathy to like the posts. It's kinda annoying for me to post it on Facebook, because I can't write as much as I want, and I can't put pictures and videos in one post. Life is complicated for me, just because I want it to be that way.

Life is complicated just because you want it to be that way.

I am known by many to think too much at times. Sometimes I create stories or events in my head, that will never happen. That's me. It can be kinda annoying at times, so I am actually annoyed with myself. Scumbag brain.

Here comes the best part. Grab some popcorn, a can of soda, because it may be a long post.

Brace yourselves, people.

I am a fearless bastard.  But now I am in deep shit. Why? I cheated on my ex-girlfriend for the fact that she was cheating on me too. I am not the type who would easily cheat, but once the going gets tough, the tough gets going. 

I go with the rule, and I choose her instead of you. You asked me to love her, and let you go. I'm trying my best right now. We broke up with good terms, meaning that we agreed that she goes back to her boyfriend, and I try to be faithful to her.  But why are you mad when we chat on Facebook and video chatting using FaceTime on iPad? Didn't you say that you wanted happiness for your little sister? You told me not to break her heart, not to hurt her. I'm trying my best to do it, because I respect you and I do love her. Don't you feel happy when you see your little sister whom you love so much, feeling happy as she is, laughing away happily with the one she loves?

She loves you as your sister. Don't think that she doesn't love you because you felt that she don't care about your feelings. Seriously, I have no rights to give comments on your relationship with your sister, but I am already dragged in, so yeah, I have to intervene. At the end of the day, I don't want to take the blame for everything, and if I don't intervene, both of your scumbag brains will create a situation that never happened, and you quarrel, and you hate each other. Seriously?

Look, here's the deal. We all be happy, can we? We're supposed to be happy.  

Mag, I promise that whatever happens between us, we still love each other as much as we do, always. Don't ever let me go. I never knew what I wanted till' I looked into your eyes.  I love you.

<3